I've been feeling a little frozen lately. I don't feel like I have a real rock right now. My life is stuck in a blender. The good news is, I think the blender has stopped and the mix is starting to settle and separate.
I'm off to CA next week to visit and stabilize things a little. I feel terrible about leaving Adam at home alone, especially since work is crazy for him right now, but he has assured me that he will be fine. I can't be his rock right now without making this trip. My grandpa has just been diagnnosed with prostate cancer that has metastasized to his bone. The thought of him being sick drains me. I love him, I miss him.
My best FL friend moved a couple of months ago and I feel a little isolated without her. We didn't even talk every week, but she was real. She is a good friend. It is hard that I don't have a good friend close right now. It makes me even more homesick. I miss my family.
At least Adam and I are good in our marriage. We are a both a little needy right now, but I am thankful to have him in my life. He is constant. He is amazing.
Halloween was great, Aidan is able to say trick-or-treat now and still doesn't know what candy is. That's a good thing since we had to give away 90% of his candy to keep the dairy out of the house.
I'm excited about the holidays approaching. I can't wait for the cool weather. I am governed by inertia in the heat.
I started putting Anna in the bedroom to nap yeaterday instead of in the swing in the family room. What a difference! She's already been napping for 2hrs this morning. That and Little Bear have given me a nice little break.
Anna can stand all by herself now, without pulling up on anything. Its weird to see. A little baby (7mo and small for her age) standing in the middle of the room squatting and recovering. It freaks people out.