I was a little worried about the way I would feel about Aidan after I held and bonded with my baby girl. I had read and heard that he would seem so big and I might have a hard time feeling like I wanted to give him as much attention or nurse him. While I have set limits on his nursing, I have not felt like I do not want to or felt like he was in the way. He is still my baby, my little boy, and I still get a high from being his mommy.
There is a feeling I get when he nurses sleepy after a nap, or copies my words in his own cute way, or jumps off the sofa and bounces happily in a fun way making us laugh. It is the same empowering feeling I get when I've had a glass of wine or two (I don't know how else to describe it). The feeling like I can lick the world. The feeling that I have the energy and want to do all the little things I've been thinking about, like writing my thank you notes, or sending our nurse a card, or writing Adam a little love note to get before bed. It's a high that feels so good.
At 2 years old he does have little, sometimes big, tantrums. He makes us roll our eyes and feel like he's never going to stop screaming, but he's still so damn cute. He loves to give group hugs. If Adam and I are hugging, he runs up and exclaims "HUD" and opens up his arms. Tonight, Adam gave me a kisss and Aidan ran up after and kissed "mmwwaaaa" to me. It drives me nuts when Anna is (finally) asleep for two seconds in her swing and he stops the swing and pokes at her head and says "baby" while hugging in close. It drives me nuts until I realize how cute he is that he loves her so much. When he wants to hold her he says "hoy-ee" and opens his arms to her.
He's also becomming so independent. This morning we played scrabble before my sister and her beau left for the airport and Aidan played under the table, singing and playing solo. This afternoon, he discovered the Finding Nemo game Adam installed on his computer for his birthday and played while Adam and I relaxed. When Adam went to check on him, he waved his arm, motioning for Adam to leave him in peace to play alone. He loves his computer and can use the mouse like a pro. When we go to the mall, we stop every time at the Mac store so he can play for a few minutes at the kid's station. When I tell him it's time to go, we say goodbye and we leave without a big deal (most times). I've realized that our time is his too and I share it with him. I think that helps him share it with me too.
I've also realized that he really likes to help and to take the time to let him (slowly or messily) do some things. He gets really frustrated sometimes but is usually open to reminders to use his words. He'll be in the middle of a tantrum and start spewing words in his own language to make me understand. I am so in love with him still. It's amazing, but I'm in love with both of my babies. I can't believe Aidan is 2. I really want the chance at more kids, some day, but I feel so complete with Aidan and Anna right now.
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